Changing Tides

8 06 2009

Life is full of changes. I end up undergoing a few even if I claim not to enjoy change that much. In the past weeks… well, two months almost since my last post, many changes took place, small or not so small, who can tell? I’d been eager to write but failed to find time or inspiration to do so, so… this will end up short but at least it will come out, as a smoke sign that this blog is still kicking… or at least dragging itself :-P

Anyway, I went to watch Carmina Burana a few weeks ago. It was nice and a differente evening. You can hear the full concert (from another orquestra & choir & location) below.

- Lyrics here -

Besides that… well… life takes its turns, that’s for sure. Some we have no power over them, other we do. After over 13 months working at Sweethearts Jazz Club in SL I gave up my job as a host there (I was one of the oldest ones still working there). It was kind of sad and I’d been dragging that decision over and over… but eventually it was the right thing to do. It no longer felt like fun and only as work for me lately. I didn’t like that. When I first started there, the money was much less and I worked much longer hours… but it ended up being more rewarding. This of course is also due to my own personality I guess, ‘cuz I tend to prefer small intimate places other then large big and crowded venues. Plus, my RL work was cramping me free time and it was a constant struggle to get home and spend two hours there when I had so much else to do.

*Sigh*

Anyway… I’ve met lots of interesting people working there at Sweethearts. Made a few friends. Learned a few things. About me… about others. It was a worthwhile experience… and looking back, I feel much more relieved having left it. I wasn’t doing a great job anymore, just punching the card and the keyboard… new blood will surely do a better job then I was doing in these final months I worked there.

Aside from that FreeLife Magazine has been on a way extended hiatus for… pfff…. way too long. Not that I would have much time to write from them though :P Yet, I miss writing for them. It was such a cool experience… oh well, like the opening from Carmina Burana says… “O Fortuna, like the moon, you are changeable, ever waxing and waning;” Such is one’s life, new things arriving, old ones vanishing… eh…

Hmmm…. anyway talking about RL, a few twists and turns happen there too.

I got my own car now :) Its neat. Still getting used to the idea though. My personal life is also taking unexpected steps forward… never thought I’d be where I am right now an year ago. Eh… an year ago. Time’s funny. How all the dates, celebrations and events seem to blend in to a collective memory, distorting time and our perception of it… Summer’s here. That’s for sure. Where we’ll we been in one year’s time? Pfff…. I can’t even begin to guess…

Such is life… one day at a time and each day seems shorter and shorter. Can’t get enough time to do all I wanted to do. Maybe I just need to organize myself a little better. Grow up a little more perhaps. Live a little more… eh… many things have happen, I just didn’t wrote them…

Anyway… Hope I can get back in to a more regular posting scheme :)

Cheers





The Awakening

4 04 2009
(This was a story I sketch two years ago or something like that to participate in NaNoWriMo… I never ended up doing it, but I wrote this intro, so why not publish it? Maybe I’ll continue it one of these days)

THE AWAKENING

by Petros Miklos

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The wind blew gently past Neu Fawlk’s long dark reddish hair as he kept running through the valley of information before his eyes.

He had just logged in and was just perusing his own local cluster for any recent alterations.

The field below was dense as a black hole, full of compressed and encrypted information just screaming for the right scalpel to peel they protective layers off and gaze in to the wondrous mysteries they hold, just what Fawlk enjoyed.

A blink flashed and Fawlk logged off with a grumpy noise returning back to the reality which held his physical existence.

***

The room where he stood was quite large given the value of real space those days. That’s not to say that he actually bought it. No, he just stole the money from somebody else and paid to have a reasonable apartment but not large enough to warrant any undesired attention to his income winning methods. The fact was the single room was most of the house size and hold most of the equipment within, serving as bedroom, living room and kitchen at the same time. There two other small divisions in the flat. A cranky tiny bathroom with the minimal facilities and a cubicle he used as a storage facility.

There was one large polymorphic window occupying most of one wall of the main room. The fact that it was a real window to the outside itself made the flat value rocket upwards, but Fawlk liked to consider it his little vanity. One window to the real world, thousands of virtual windows to the thousands of virtual ones. It was his moment of poetry, a touch of class and philosophy to what was otherwise a flat in dire need of a cleaning.

The fact that he himself didn’t liked to go outside his realm only made things worse. There were many reasons as to why he always stay at home. He didn’t liked to travel, he didn’t liked to walk, he despised public transportation, driving a ground car was just insane and inefficient and any non-ground vehicle required him to attend some sort of school which, undoubtedly, added people to the equation, and plenty of them, that of course was just not going to happen. The fact was that he enjoyed being alone, hidden in his refuge, surfing the information highways, watching the world, learning, experiencing, interacting but in the comfort of his lair. “What’s the point of going anywhere if you can know everything about it right here?” he kept saying to himself. All he ever needed was at a finger’s distance, and that was just the way he liked it. THAT was comfort, that was his pinnacle of evolution, that was his life.

But aside the dozen cores, memory storage’s, screens, interfaces, drivers of all kinds dating back to the stone-age of the internet, there was a peculiar fact about Neu’s life that elude the naked eye: a woman. She was no princess by any means, just a drug addicted vagrant that managed to find her way in to the hacker’s life. The two of them were outcast of society, one by choice another by consequence. She provided him help with menial tasks he abhorred doing, such as garbage disposal, cleaning his clothes, the occasional exquisite food that wasn’t home delivered and menial tasks as such. Plus, she served as a counterweight for him, preventing him from over abusing is time online; while he, on the other hand, prevented her from buying crappy and flawed drugs or succumbing to an overdose, as also providing her some economic independence so as to avoid further the humanity downfall. Fawlk saw her as his payback to human kind, sort of an excuse or perhaps a way to apologize for the ‘indiscretions’ that he may or may have  not committed online. She was his project to save mankind (one at a time). Tanya thought similarly towards him. In her own way it was she who was saving Fawlk from ‘overdosing’ his own drug.

In the end, she helped him, he helped her. One hand washing over the other. It worked and that was enough for him.

Shaking his head, Fawlk stood up from his bed where he had been for the past hours connected with the massive interplanetary network know as IRNet, short for immersive reality network. It was the source of all information, the core of every system was connected to it, everyone who was someone was linked to it and you could literally see the World in one day there if only your brain could withstand the exertion. He looked around making his neck make cracking noises just before he tapped his console and turn the flat’s lights on and unlocked the door outside.

Tanya walked in looking as pale as usual, puffyness on her half-closed eyes, her clothes worn and battered and in her hands a light polymer box undoubtedly carrying some food and her new batch of drugs.

“Looking pale today…” Fawlk remarked at her, impatiently waiting for her to hurry up.

“Hmmm… Yeah… M’guess” she replied with her voice trailing off.

“Ya had your fix already?”

Tanya just moaned affirmatively, dropping the box next to him before crashing down on the bed.

Fawlk smirked and pondered for a second if it would be worth preaching her about his rules. It wasn’t, she was just too stubborn or to dependent to wait to get home to ice her brain up. He knew the drill and as long as she didn’t killed herself and kept her end of the bargain it was all he really wanted.

Dismissing any more thoughts about her he open the box and took a slice of the organic pizza taking a bite on it.

“Hmmmm, ish ghooth!” he commented aloud, even though Tanya had already blacked out in to her surreal trip.

He turned around facing the keyboard console again. He prided himself in being one of the few hackers that still dwell in ultra-low coding his routines for efficiency high marks. He was just about to finish his latest bot to aid him in his exploratory quests of the I-net. It was a necessity for anyone who wished to peruse the more fundamental layers of the network to customize their browser to fit their whims; there were of course millions of other pieces of ware already available (one way or another) to do this, but to have access to the very specifics of any given task one might want to achieve while hacking, one had to design his own tools or spend years learning to use someone’s else.  Plus there was always the possibility of being hacked by using any of those tools as one could never really know what to expect for such hard-coded routines. So, evidently, as a proud member of an elitist and quite despotism society of hackers, he did it the hard way. It was after all the only way.

***

A couple of hours later Fawlk was still hooked to his console. The food had already cooled down but as Tanya woke up she didn’t mind it much. She said nothing, she knew how much he hated to be interrupted while parussing his own addiction. She didn’t complain, it was him and his long hours logged on that paid her addiction and food, plus the shelter in some way afterall. So she sat there quiet, still feeling the light effects of the drug on her brain, and watched as he digged deep on the many layers of information.





DarkClaw’s Return

16 03 2009

Prologue

The old man stood silent in the night mist, feeling the fresh winter wind rustling through his hair has he looked up high into the sky, gazing at the eternal light of the shining stars. People often forgot to look up and gaze upon the wondrous spectacle that stood over their heads uncaring about their petty lives and affairs… People often forget a lot of things. Often the important ones… Like looking up at the night sky and be amazed by the Universe and glimpse all its affair from high above… All was vanity… What was the point in the end? Hundreds of lives wasted in minutes… And for what?

The old veteran looked around, letting his senses once more be trapped with the worldly scents and sounds. His sword was still reflecting the pale night light below the crimson coat that covered all of it’s blade. Under his feet the corpses of fellow soldiers and enemies alike stood motionless in a grim display of impossible poses and dismembered limps…

“So young…” Petros, better known as the ‘DarkClaw’, muttered through his lips has he gazed upon the battlefield once more and could only see young men and women, slain and with cold eyes in the faces of those that still had them. For some reason he had more and more difficulties lately after a battle to distinguish friends and foes… All looked the same; no loyalty, no country, no flag or standard… Just… Motionless corpses of young people with yet so much to live and no more life to have… It all sounded to be a tremendous waste, and for what purpose? Kingdoms came and went, kings and ideals rose and fall and soon faded in to the oblivion of time and memory…

“What for?…” he asked aloud this time, though barely noticing he had done so, but loud enough to catch one of his captains attention.

“Sir! I thought it would be wise to gather the weapons dropped not to leave them for raiders and vagrants to…” DarkClaw interrupted him with a hand gesture. “As you were Lucian. Carry on.” he said to the veteran captain.

He still remembers the first day he had saw him stepping in to the war academy. Young, proud, arrogant and cocky. He changed too. He’d become a man now. A good loyal friend and a inspiring leader and warrior. Yet, some thoughts were still not to share with him. He was still young in a way, he still could not understand the weight, the burden he would be carrying over his shoulders after so many battles fought…

He took a turn and took another longing look at the massacre’s spoils around him. A grand victory, the historians would write and the bards would sing about the bravery and sacrifice those heroes made that day… But no one would remember the foul stench of the death and the eyes of all those that were slain that day. Their eyes would only curse him, with those last moments of life wasted gazing upon the bringer of their demise. DarkClaw could not remember how many they had been… But he could feel the burden getting heavier with each soul taken… And their eyes… Their eyes always haunting him on his dreams, with their screams, their last words, their last breath in a pulsating turmoil only those who have seen war could understand.

The day had declined. Another battle won. Once again he survived… But how much of him did died there too?





הללויה

11 03 2009





On SL Partnership Proposal Limitations

18 02 2009

I claim to be a somewhat romantic person.

Of course that is open to discussion by those that suffer the consequences of my romanticism (or lack of it) so I won’t diddle about it much more then that. But asides from that small matter… one has tickled me for quite some time and I’ve been holding this thought in my mind for quite a bit.

In Second Life people can get partnered with another avatar.

Meaning something from being a casual couple, boyfriends, a couple, a married couple, fuck partner, soul mates, master/slave… heck, who knows what else? For me, it means that the other person is not just a friend anymore, it has grown way past that, and the two of us have become romantically involved… which in time can lead to share more and more things, living together and just let your imagination flow…

Anyway, my rant is about the process of asking for a Partnership in SL !

Sure, you can plan an all grand display of affection in-world for the big moment and ask your to-be partner the big question, or go for a intimate and felt display of emotion… either way, to make it official you need to inform (and pay a small amount) to Linden Labs so they can add the new information to both your profiles stating to the Metaverse that the two of you are now partners, for good or for worst !! :-D

So… what goes wrong?

No, its not the amount you have to pay, its actually a quite symbolic payment you have to pay (10L$ each)… What goes wrong, and displays an apparent lack of romance flair from LL, is:

The amount of characters you can put in your partnership proposal !!

Yep. That’s true. You’re limited in space (and quite so I must add) to what you can say to your beloved one to ask her/him/it if they would like to partner with yourself. Having used that lovely form myself, that you need to fill in to become partners in Second Life, I’ve ended up battling with my own words and inspiration to find a way to say all that I wanted in such a crumpled little space.

I ended up just proposing with a teaser, and sending her a notecard with the full version later on.

It’s annoying to be cramped up in space when you wanna express your feelings. Feelings are hard to squeeze in to just a few words since they surpass simple words so easyly… maybe its just my verbosity, I dunno. I just can’t understand what’s the technical impairment of adding larger limits to a form that it is just used to send that very same text to the other persons’ email. C’mon…. it’s an e-mail, its not like you’re going to pay extra money for crossing the 1000 words per email… *mumbles a bit*

If not enough… you can’t access your proposal after sending it!!

GAH!!! Ok, maybe its just a pet peeve of mine, but I like to keep records of my things, things I wrote, things I’ve read and enjoyed, things with sentimental value… yeah, so I like to keep records of that, call me crazy. But noooo… you can’t access your proposal after hitting the send button. You DO get a lovely reply back (if your proposal is accepted, otherwise it might not be so lovely) from your loved one. And yes, that one I can safely keep in my email… but frankly: couldn’t they just add a tiny feature for you to recall it out too?

All I ask is:

  • Increase the text space in the Partnership Proposal Form (we’re trying to propose for crying out loud!!)

and

  • Don’t throw it to the trash (let us keep it for memory lane ! Please?)

Sincerely, one passionate SL Avatar





My Career Path

10 02 2009

Snagged from Summer’s Blog

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The Dewey Color System® is the world’s first and only validated, color-based personality career testing instrument. Based on our experience and your interests, your best suited occupations are listed below.
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Best Occupational Category
You’re a CREATOR
Key Words:
Nonconforming, Impulsive, Expressive, Romantic, Intuitive, Sensitive, and Emotional

These original types place a high value on aesthetic qualities and have a great need for self-expression. They enjoy working independently, being creative, using their imagination, and constantly learning something new. Fields of interest are art, drama, music, and writing or places where they can express, assemble, or implement creative ideas.

CREATOR OCCUPATIONS
Suggested careers are Advertising Executive, Architect, Web Designer, Creative Director, Public Relations, Fine or Commercial Artist, Interior Decorator, Lawyer, Librarian, Musician, Reporter, Art Teacher, Broadcaster, Technical Writer, English Teacher, Architect, Photographer, Medical Illustrator, Corporate Trainer, Author, Editor, Landscape Architect, Exhibit Builder, and Package Designer.

CREATOR WORKPLACES
Consider workplaces where you can create and improve beauty and aesthetic qualities. Unstructured, flexible organizations that allow self-expression work best with your free-spirited nature.

Suggested Creator workplaces are advertising, public relations, and interior decorating firms; artistic studios, theaters and concert halls; institutions that teach crafts, universities, music, and dance schools. Other workplaces to consider are art institutes, museums, libraries, and galleries.
2nd Best Occupational Category
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You’re an ORGANIZER
Key Words:
Self-Control, Practical, Self-Contained, Orderly, Systematic, Precise, and Accurate

These conservative appearing, plotting-types enjoy organizing, data systems, accounting, detail, and accuracy. They often enjoy mathematics and data management activities such as accounting and investment management. Persistence and patience allows them to do detailed paperwork, operate office machines, write business reports, and make charts and graphs.

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Like Summer did I also found it quite interesting and suprisingly results arrising from an apparently unrelated test. Kinky how these things work… You could be surprised with the results. And its quite easy and fast to do!

Anyway, check Summer’s Blog or just follow the direct link here





Visitor Counter by Countries

9 02 2009

So yeah, my little blog just hit the 3k visitors! How did THAT happen? Well, frankly I don’t know… so I found this quaint little gadget that tracks visitors from their home locations and adds them to a friendly counter showing their countries flag :-D

So… yeah… that’s it. Just sharing the new gadget and adding a small post about it. Its also quite easy to use it and install it on your own blog. Just click on it and it will direct you to their homesite. Create your own display and copy the code in to a new text widget in your WP widget screen… save it, and off we go!! Uieee!!!

free counters

Hope to find interesting flags there soon enough !!! :-D





The Look of Love

6 02 2009

Diana Krall – The Look of Love

The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can’t disguise
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard, well it takes my breath away

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you

You’ve got the
Look of love, it’s on your face
A look that time can’t erase
Be mine tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Let’s take a lover’s vow and then seal it with a kiss

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
Don’t ever go
Don’t ever go





The 8th Poltergeist

30 01 2009

I like my real-life job.

Every now and so often things happen that shouldn’t happen. Sometimes its bad. Sometimes its good. Sometimes its really good. Other times… well, things just happen and a yelp of fear is suddenly taken by an immense curiosity for nature…

Avast Alien !!

Avast Alien !!

Meet… oh wait.. haven’t named him… her… it…

Meet Alien! :-D He just popped out, probably literally, after a very windy and spinny ride from God knows where in to our microscope field of view along with the rest of the expected inhabitants of that particular culture plate.

Eheh… it was fun. Not easy to use your cellphone to take pictures through a microscope btw (we should buy a camera thinking about that…hmmm….).

Oh well, I got to know it was a cousin of some arachnid… more precisely a species of mite. Now, they don’t like those room temperatures, and this one must had been having an hard time there too! Plus it was quite tiny, no bigger 0.05 mm wide… so… well… it was interesting.

Have I mentioned that I like my job?

Quite an exciting day today too. No actual new results… but fun and laid back :D eheheh





políbit

27 01 2009

Somethings are said without words, others with words you don’t understand… yet, you can enjoy and say them without understanding them completely, like this song (for me at least) :-)

ps: though make-up can add a glamarous effect indeed, it certainly isn’t needed. ;-)