Virtual Dreams aren’t just made of pixels

A rendering of virtual personas or a projection of real emotions?

I have little doubts about it.

A Case of You

I know I haven’t been writing much around here, mea culpa I suppose. All things considered life is going pretty well indeed. Lot of unexpected unfolding events, who knows which others are bond to come my way? Eh… Life sure takes curious turns. I can’t imagine how my life would be if roughly an year again I hadn’t met her… probably would still be the same ol’ same… dull and gray, with fake blobs of color… maybe… guess I’ll never know now, will I? Fact is… its hard to live and/or even just imagine living without you around me…

The way you look at me. The way you make me feel. The way you love me. How being apart breaks you apart. How my life is duller away from you. How I count the minutes away from you and look forward in time, waiting and hopeing…. It’s harder everyday to be apart… it doesn’t seems to exist such a thing as too much time…

I had another song in my mind, but I’ve posted it before already – The Look of Love -  so I’ll put another one instead, A Case of You.

Hmmm… I got a case… a case of you…

A Case of You

Just before our love got lost you said
“I am as constant as a northern star”
And said, “Constant in the dark
Where’s that at?
If you want me I’ll be in the bar”

On the back of a cartoon coaster
In a blue TV screen light
I drew a map of Canada
Oh Canada
And your face sketched on it twice

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
Still I’d be on my feet
I’d still be on my feet

Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
I’m frightened by the devil
And drawn to those who ain’t afraid
I remember when you told me
“Love is touching souls”
Surely you touched mine
Part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time

You are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
Still I’d be on my feet
I’d still be on my feet

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your devils and your deeds
She said
“Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed”
You are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
Still I’d be on my feet
I’d still be on my feet

Changing Tides

Life is full of changes. I end up undergoing a few even if I claim not to enjoy change that much. In the past weeks… well, two months almost since my last post, many changes took place, small or not so small, who can tell? I’d been eager to write but failed to find time or inspiration to do so, so… this will end up short but at least it will come out, as a smoke sign that this blog is still kicking… or at least dragging itself

Anyway, I went to watch Carmina Burana a few weeks ago. It was nice and a differente evening. You can hear the full concert (from another orquestra & choir & location) below.

- Lyrics here -

Besides that… well… life takes its turns, that’s for sure. Some we have no power over them, other we do. After over 13 months working at Sweethearts Jazz Club in SL I gave up my job as a host there (I was one of the oldest ones still working there). It was kind of sad and I’d been dragging that decision over and over… but eventually it was the right thing to do. It no longer felt like fun and only as work for me lately. I didn’t like that. When I first started there, the money was much less and I worked much longer hours… but it ended up being more rewarding. This of course is also due to my own personality I guess, ‘cuz I tend to prefer small intimate places other then large big and crowded venues. Plus, my RL work was cramping me free time and it was a constant struggle to get home and spend two hours there when I had so much else to do.

*Sigh*

Anyway… I’ve met lots of interesting people working there at Sweethearts. Made a few friends. Learned a few things. About me… about others. It was a worthwhile experience… and looking back, I feel much more relieved having left it. I wasn’t doing a great job anymore, just punching the card and the keyboard… new blood will surely do a better job then I was doing in these final months I worked there.

Aside from that FreeLife Magazine has been on a way extended hiatus for… pfff…. way too long. Not that I would have much time to write from them though Yet, I miss writing for them. It was such a cool experience… oh well, like the opening from Carmina Burana says… “O Fortuna, like the moon, you are changeable, ever waxing and waning;” Such is one’s life, new things arriving, old ones vanishing… eh…

Hmmm…. anyway talking about RL, a few twists and turns happen there too.

I got my own car now Its neat. Still getting used to the idea though. My personal life is also taking unexpected steps forward… never thought I’d be where I am right now an year ago. Eh… an year ago. Time’s funny. How all the dates, celebrations and events seem to blend in to a collective memory, distorting time and our perception of it… Summer’s here. That’s for sure. Where we’ll we been in one year’s time? Pfff…. I can’t even begin to guess…

Such is life… one day at a time and each day seems shorter and shorter. Can’t get enough time to do all I wanted to do. Maybe I just need to organize myself a little better. Grow up a little more perhaps. Live a little more… eh… many things have happen, I just didn’t wrote them…

Anyway… Hope I can get back in to a more regular posting scheme

Cheers

On SL Partnership Proposal Limitations

I claim to be a somewhat romantic person.

Of course that is open to discussion by those that suffer the consequences of my romanticism (or lack of it) so I won’t diddle about it much more then that. But asides from that small matter… one has tickled me for quite some time and I’ve been holding this thought in my mind for quite a bit.

In Second Life people can get partnered with another avatar.

Meaning something from being a casual couple, boyfriends, a couple, a married couple, fuck partner, soul mates, master/slave… heck, who knows what else? For me, it means that the other person is not just a friend anymore, it has grown way past that, and the two of us have become romantically involved… which in time can lead to share more and more things, living together and just let your imagination flow…

Anyway, my rant is about the process of asking for a Partnership in SL !

Sure, you can plan an all grand display of affection in-world for the big moment and ask your to-be partner the big question, or go for a intimate and felt display of emotion… either way, to make it official you need to inform (and pay a small amount) to Linden Labs so they can add the new information to both your profiles stating to the Metaverse that the two of you are now partners, for good or for worst !!

So… what goes wrong?

No, its not the amount you have to pay, its actually a quite symbolic payment you have to pay (10L$ each)… What goes wrong, and displays an apparent lack of romance flair from LL, is:

The amount of characters you can put in your partnership proposal !!

Yep. That’s true. You’re limited in space (and quite so I must add) to what you can say to your beloved one to ask her/him/it if they would like to partner with yourself. Having used that lovely form myself, that you need to fill in to become partners in Second Life, I’ve ended up battling with my own words and inspiration to find a way to say all that I wanted in such a crumpled little space.

I ended up just proposing with a teaser, and sending her a notecard with the full version later on.

It’s annoying to be cramped up in space when you wanna express your feelings. Feelings are hard to squeeze in to just a few words since they surpass simple words so easyly… maybe its just my verbosity, I dunno. I just can’t understand what’s the technical impairment of adding larger limits to a form that it is just used to send that very same text to the other persons’ email. C’mon…. it’s an e-mail, its not like you’re going to pay extra money for crossing the 1000 words per email… *mumbles a bit*

If not enough… you can’t access your proposal after sending it!!

GAH!!! Ok, maybe its just a pet peeve of mine, but I like to keep records of my things, things I wrote, things I’ve read and enjoyed, things with sentimental value… yeah, so I like to keep records of that, call me crazy. But noooo… you can’t access your proposal after hitting the send button. You DO get a lovely reply back (if your proposal is accepted, otherwise it might not be so lovely) from your loved one. And yes, that one I can safely keep in my email… but frankly: couldn’t they just add a tiny feature for you to recall it out too?

All I ask is:

• Increase the text space in the Partnership Proposal Form (we’re trying to propose for crying out loud!!)

and

• Don’t throw it to the trash (let us keep it for memory lane ! Please?)

Sincerely, one passionate SL Avatar

The Look of Love

Diana Krall – The Look of Love

The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can’t disguise
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard, well it takes my breath away

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you

You’ve got the
Look of love, it’s on your face
A look that time can’t erase
Be mine tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Let’s take a lover’s vow and then seal it with a kiss

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
Don’t ever go
Don’t ever go

políbit

Somethings are said without words, others with words you don’t understand… yet, you can enjoy and say them without understanding them completely, like this song (for me at least)

ps: though make-up can add a glamarous effect indeed, it certainly isn’t needed.

can’t figure out what title to give this…

This one is dedicated to one of a kind, one unique gal, a brilliant lady, a shinning soul cursed by dark shadows of life and destiny, a brave heart that keeps fighting despite it all… this one is for you babe…

Sorry for all that I could not do. Sorry for all that I could have done, but didn’t… and sorry for all that was left saying and for all that we have to go through now… it was never our plan, I know that, I know you fell that way too… but we never were very good with plans were we?

Sorry about the music… its a weeper for sure… but, hey… not gonna make much difference now, will it?

I just don’t want it to end… I just wanted things to be different…

Sorry…

(and no point in commenting if you’re gonna say that there is nothing to be sorry about)

…

Lyrics below….

I Honestly Love You – Olivia Newton-John

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don’t have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it’s coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I’m not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I’m not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn’t come along everyday
And you shouldn’t blow the chance
When you’ve got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we’ll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

Chapter III

And so it is. Three months. Three whole months. A few breaks in between, a few angst days, a few storms… but in the end, as I look back: three months of pleasure; getting to know you, sharing with you, learning with you and being happy with you…

Though often I have some ability to write, I lack today the words to express myself.

You run through my veins now. You’re part of my everyday. Part of every night. Part of my imaginary. Part of my reality. Though you thank me often and feel some need to ‘pay me back’ all that I have given you… well… you really don’t need to do such thing at all. All that you give me is more then enough, more then I expected.

Love you pimpolha! <3

One year of my second life

One year of my second life … And roughly the 27th of my first one.

Eh, go figure. One year ago Petros was rezzed (born) in Second Life. The fact that it was actually my already 3rd avatar doesn’t change one very crucial factor: it was with Petros that I discovered what Second Life is.
It didn’t happen immediately, though I created him to, in a way, be a extension of my real self, and thus I started to do some un-newbie things with him… But it didn’t last long and RL contingencies made him fade in to what looked like an eternum oblivion…

Then 2008 come and with it my official unemployment and hordes of free time… Being the geek and reclusive person I tend do be, computer games sounded good enough to entertain me while I was not looking for a job. Eh, soon enough, Second Life caught my attention again… It could have been a short lived return, but on the very first day of my (re)return I incidently met my first lover in SL and my first SL job.
I got hooked before I knew.

I started making friends (not just contacts), I started woring and getting linden bucks without camping, I started to love through my avatar and I rent my very first (virtual) property. I was on a high. For a few weeks my first life become my second one…

Eh… Maybe it was too much, but it was probably important to experience that in that stage of my life as well… Just like any another piece of my life coming in to place in the big puzzle of it.

Eventually things changed.

Old friends vanished, new ones were made. My inventory grew, my house got furnished, memories made, dreams shared…

I found a new job along the way. One in SL, and then quickly one in RL.

My romance ended… But Petros endured. Maybe wiser, maybe more conscious, maybe…

Then RL started to take its toll on SL. “first life comes first” we always say… Eh, yeah right… Then why do we want so eagerly to return home? I’m side-tracking now…

Anyway… Life, the second one, moved on (as well as the first one). Two jobs, a place to call home, friends and confidants, some drama, cool clothes, an identity and lindens to spare… And before I could properly rez what was coming my way, Summer arrived and a new and unexpected relationship was born out of all the wondrous coincidences that make life such a funny play to read. And here I am now. Happy, tired, richer, smiling. I have no idea what another year will bring me but… It will be unexpected for sure.

In our island now we stand together and I feel wiser with all that SL as teach me as a person, as a lover, as a friend, as a intimate confident, as an explorer, as a community member… I have seen what Second Life can be… The good and the bad… Just like first life… Only maybe at a fasten pace.

In the process of learning more about others, I got to know myself from the eyes of others… And that was truly amazing.

Thank you, to all whom have contributed to me growing up a little more in this year that went by.
See ya all next year

Animoto.com

Now here’s one cool site: Animoto

I’ve just been there for less then 5min and I got this done in no time: