Summer, Ephemeria & Cycles

And its September once again…

Where did time go?

Summer went by like a gush of wind and all its left are the tingling sensations in your skin, memories of what you felt in that brief moment in time.

It’s back to work now. Full time. Full projects. Full schedule. Plenty of deadlines. Some projects and wishes too. Fall is nearing by, with leafs lavishing the ground and stripping down the trees for the cold weather that starts to blow over us. Summer’09 is nearly a memory of the past. Good memories. Very good indeed.

Sure… the wall isn’t painted yet…

Sure… it was not enough…

Of course it could have been more…

But it was unique alright. And for that a treasure to keep.

Perhaps the end was more nostalgic then I wished it to be so. But in perspective it was inevitable to feel blue with the days passing and the realization of what was to come clearer every day.

It’s now over an year that Pumpkin & I met in-world. Over an year since we hooked up unofficially… and 53 weeks since we officially partnered inworld. That’s a whole year plus some spare days. It doesn’t feel like that long… but it also feels like it has been like that since ever.

We ended up hardly doing anything to celebrate the day with all the blues hitting us with the incoming summer vacations end… it was a pity actually… we did spend a hell of a great Summer and even feeling like an ephemera sensation, it marks a point in time I’m proud of.

Let’s see what time will hold for us in the meantime…

Afterall, from what I’ve heard… each year that goes by tends to hold an individual package of Summer inside.

Summer’s Almost Gone – The Doors

Summer’s almost gone,
Summer’s almost gone,
Almost gone,
Yeah, it’s almost gone.
Where will we be
When the summer’s gone?

Morning found us calmly unaware,
Noon burned gold into our hair,
At night we swam at laughin’ sea
When summer’s gone, where will we be?
Where will we be?
Where will we be?

Morning found us calmly unaware,
Noon burned gold into our hair,
At night, we swam at laughin’ sea
When summer’s gone, where will we be?

Summer’s almost gone,
Summer’s almost gone.
We had some good times,
But they’re gone,
The winter’s comin’ on,
Summer’s almost gone.

A Case of You

I know I haven’t been writing much around here, mea culpa I suppose. All things considered life is going pretty well indeed. Lot of unexpected unfolding events, who knows which others are bond to come my way? Eh… Life sure takes curious turns. I can’t imagine how my life would be if roughly an year again I hadn’t met her… probably would still be the same ol’ same… dull and gray, with fake blobs of color… maybe… guess I’ll never know now, will I? Fact is… its hard to live and/or even just imagine living without you around me…

The way you look at me. The way you make me feel. The way you love me. How being apart breaks you apart. How my life is duller away from you. How I count the minutes away from you and look forward in time, waiting and hopeing…. It’s harder everyday to be apart… it doesn’t seems to exist such a thing as too much time…

I had another song in my mind, but I’ve posted it before already – The Look of Love -  so I’ll put another one instead, A Case of You.

Hmmm… I got a case… a case of you…

A Case of You

Just before our love got lost you said
“I am as constant as a northern star”
And said, “Constant in the dark
Where’s that at?
If you want me I’ll be in the bar”

On the back of a cartoon coaster
In a blue TV screen light
I drew a map of Canada
Oh Canada
And your face sketched on it twice

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
Still I’d be on my feet
I’d still be on my feet

Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
I’m frightened by the devil
And drawn to those who ain’t afraid
I remember when you told me
“Love is touching souls”
Surely you touched mine
Part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time

You are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
Still I’d be on my feet
I’d still be on my feet

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your devils and your deeds
She said
“Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed”
You are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
Still I’d be on my feet
I’d still be on my feet

Changing Tides

Life is full of changes. I end up undergoing a few even if I claim not to enjoy change that much. In the past weeks… well, two months almost since my last post, many changes took place, small or not so small, who can tell? I’d been eager to write but failed to find time or inspiration to do so, so… this will end up short but at least it will come out, as a smoke sign that this blog is still kicking… or at least dragging itself

Anyway, I went to watch Carmina Burana a few weeks ago. It was nice and a differente evening. You can hear the full concert (from another orquestra & choir & location) below.

- Lyrics here -

Besides that… well… life takes its turns, that’s for sure. Some we have no power over them, other we do. After over 13 months working at Sweethearts Jazz Club in SL I gave up my job as a host there (I was one of the oldest ones still working there). It was kind of sad and I’d been dragging that decision over and over… but eventually it was the right thing to do. It no longer felt like fun and only as work for me lately. I didn’t like that. When I first started there, the money was much less and I worked much longer hours… but it ended up being more rewarding. This of course is also due to my own personality I guess, ‘cuz I tend to prefer small intimate places other then large big and crowded venues. Plus, my RL work was cramping me free time and it was a constant struggle to get home and spend two hours there when I had so much else to do.

*Sigh*

Anyway… I’ve met lots of interesting people working there at Sweethearts. Made a few friends. Learned a few things. About me… about others. It was a worthwhile experience… and looking back, I feel much more relieved having left it. I wasn’t doing a great job anymore, just punching the card and the keyboard… new blood will surely do a better job then I was doing in these final months I worked there.

Aside from that FreeLife Magazine has been on a way extended hiatus for… pfff…. way too long. Not that I would have much time to write from them though Yet, I miss writing for them. It was such a cool experience… oh well, like the opening from Carmina Burana says… “O Fortuna, like the moon, you are changeable, ever waxing and waning;” Such is one’s life, new things arriving, old ones vanishing… eh…

Hmmm…. anyway talking about RL, a few twists and turns happen there too.

I got my own car now Its neat. Still getting used to the idea though. My personal life is also taking unexpected steps forward… never thought I’d be where I am right now an year ago. Eh… an year ago. Time’s funny. How all the dates, celebrations and events seem to blend in to a collective memory, distorting time and our perception of it… Summer’s here. That’s for sure. Where we’ll we been in one year’s time? Pfff…. I can’t even begin to guess…

Such is life… one day at a time and each day seems shorter and shorter. Can’t get enough time to do all I wanted to do. Maybe I just need to organize myself a little better. Grow up a little more perhaps. Live a little more… eh… many things have happen, I just didn’t wrote them…

Anyway… Hope I can get back in to a more regular posting scheme

Cheers

הללויה

The Look of Love

Diana Krall – The Look of Love

The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can’t disguise
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard, well it takes my breath away

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you

You’ve got the
Look of love, it’s on your face
A look that time can’t erase
Be mine tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Let’s take a lover’s vow and then seal it with a kiss

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
Don’t ever go
Don’t ever go

políbit

Somethings are said without words, others with words you don’t understand… yet, you can enjoy and say them without understanding them completely, like this song (for me at least)

ps: though make-up can add a glamarous effect indeed, it certainly isn’t needed.

can’t figure out what title to give this…

This one is dedicated to one of a kind, one unique gal, a brilliant lady, a shinning soul cursed by dark shadows of life and destiny, a brave heart that keeps fighting despite it all… this one is for you babe…

Sorry for all that I could not do. Sorry for all that I could have done, but didn’t… and sorry for all that was left saying and for all that we have to go through now… it was never our plan, I know that, I know you fell that way too… but we never were very good with plans were we?

Sorry about the music… its a weeper for sure… but, hey… not gonna make much difference now, will it?

I just don’t want it to end… I just wanted things to be different…

Sorry…

(and no point in commenting if you’re gonna say that there is nothing to be sorry about)

…

Lyrics below….

I Honestly Love You – Olivia Newton-John

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don’t have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it’s coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I’m not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I’m not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn’t come along everyday
And you shouldn’t blow the chance
When you’ve got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we’ll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

I miss…

I miss having time to think.

I miss having the joyful and untainted smile of my youth.

I miss … I miss many things.

O Homem do Leme

Sozinho na noite
um barco ruma para onde vai.
Uma luz no escuro brilha a direito
ofusca as demais.

E mais que uma onda, mais que uma maré…
Tentaram prendê-lo impor-lhe uma fé…
Mas, vogando à vontade, rompendo a saudade,
vai quem já nada teme, vai o homem do leme…

E uma vontade de rir nasce do fundo do ser.
E uma vontade de ir, correr o mundo e partir,
a vida é sempre a perder…

No fundo do mar
ja sem os outros, os que lá ficaram.
Em dias cinzentos
descanso eterno lá encontraram.

E mais que uma onda, mais que uma maré…
Tentaram prendê-lo, impor-lhe uma fé…
Mas, vogando à vontade, rompendo a saudade,
vai quem já nada teme, vai o homem do leme…

E uma vontade de rir nasce do fundo do ser.
E uma vontade de ir, correr o mundo e partir,
a vida é sempre a perder…

No fundo horizonte
sopra o murmúrio para onde vai.
No fundo do tempo
foge o futuro, é tarde demais…

E uma vontade de rir nasce do fundo do ser.
E uma vontade de ir, correr o mundo e partir,
a vida é sempre a perder…

The moon and the planets are shinning above

Did you saw the night sky yesterday? You didn’t… well, you should. Looking up to the nightsky is good. It gives you perspective on many things; on how small you are and on how pointless so many fights are (if not almost all of them)… its good to look to the nightsky. I like it. Last night… well, last night it was special.

Some pictures on BBC website

One piece of news about it too

Eh, it’s funny how things are. How sometimes all things come together and you don’t quite know how to explain them, making you feel like a kid staring in awe, while trying to act like a wise man understanding all the rules and theory of how things work and behave… but deep down, we’re all just teenagers, winging it as we go, amazed by things that have been around for so many time, that so many people have experienced… yet all this is new to us.

Eh, Strange World indeed… not in a bad way, but just in a way that we sometimes forget that that’s how it actually is, instead of the colorful, dull gray or black & white pictures we like to paint it in our brains.

It’s… I dunno. Surprisingly natural what happen yesterday, but it makes you wonder, makes you think, makes you feel things… and that is good. It open ups your mind, ya know? It was a surprisingly unexpected surprise, one that life, destiny, God, your pick, from time to time sends it on your way and you just catch it not really knowing what to expect… and thats just it – Carpe Diem -

I wonder what will happen next? What will aligned itself next? Yes, there are rules to predict them… laws constraining these things, but… in the end, all things just play out as they should… amazing isn’t it?

Eh, and with my wanderings I end with an awesome piece of art, by none other then Mr. Frank Sinatra himself… “Fly me to the moon”. Love that song.

Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Can you see clearly now?

I Can See Clearly Now by Johnny Nash

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

Oh yes I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

Look all around, there’s nothin’ but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin’ but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day